When I started this blog, it was supposed to be my "adult blog". The blog where I kept all the notes about homeschooling and homesteading and just being me.
*sigh*
I have not been as proactive in that move as I would have hoped I could be. In all fairness, it's been a rough year so far. We've been up to our ears in Life--Eagle Scout and Webelos Crossover ceremonies, homeschooling, basement tide pools, and trying to figure out why this whole mess isn't working anymore.
While I can't stop Life from happening, I do know partially why it's not working so well now: a mother was meant to be home with her kids and her husband, taking care of her home and making four bare walls into a place of comfort and shelter. I'm so tired of being a "working mom."
After a long long overdue chat with my husband, I have managed to make him see that all of the things he's constantly complaining about at home are things that I SHOULD be taking care of in that time between finishing up school with the boys in the afternoon and when he gets up in the evening. Housework and meal planning and school prep for the next day. Hours and hours of things that don't get done because I'm Not Here.
I've also finally convinced him that we are never going to "keep up with the Joneses" and thankgod for that! I don't WANT to feel like I need to have everything that everyone else has. I want to just have what we have and work with that. I don't need to have all the new fancy gadgets or expensive clothes and stuff that the rest of America flaunts (like we are entitled to it). I'm tired of trying to keep track of the stuff that clutters our house as it is. I've been slowly trying to weed through everything and regain some control over what we do have and need.
So from here on out, I'm going to try and use my Blog to that advantage: to chronicle my quest to find my quiet center at Home...and my transition out of The Job.
*sigh*
Did you hear that scream? My boss. She's not going to like this....
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